It's a weakness, a personality flaw, an insecurity, a whatever-you-want-to-call-it. I'm not a front man. My major might have been public relations and I might be good with people, but I'm still not a good front man. I'm good at meeting-and-greeting and I can plan a meet-and-greet session, but the finding people TO meet and greet is NOT my strong suit.
I can't even exactly pinpoint exactly what it is that I'm not good at. I'm a planner by nature, and I'm extremely well-written, well-organized, well-thought out, well-planned, etc. I also am good with people and generally know what to say to make them feel at ease (at least visitors/donors) and how to make them feel welcome. But there's some sort of middle step between the planning/organizing and actually in-person communication that I lack, skip over, don't like to do, am not good at doing, whatever the case may be. And it seems as though I'm not always bad at it and not always adverse to it. If it comes to e-mailing a professor at Marquette to come speak to my Circle K club, I can do that -- I did that. For some reason, though, being here makes it harder. Perhaps it's what I'm asking for or who I have to contact. It's just weird that I have such an aversion to making simple phone calls and going to visit people.
Although I've grown up and matured a lot since moving to Chicago, I also think in some ways I've reverted back to the shy parts of my personality. I'm a lot more introverted than people might think sometimes. Don't ask me to try and understand myself -- it's too complicated. :)
